i have so much to say but i can never get the right words to be typed out. i always have a million things running through my mind about things but when it comes down to it… my fingers just stop clicking. sometimes i wish the computer can just read my mind and type itself … kind of like the new iphone 4s. hahaha that’d be sick.
anyways… so bare with me.
so today was the day. THE day. when i went in to get a biopsy to see wtf is going on with my body. (keep in mind i hate the drs office. i hate everything that has to do with life or death situations.) but anyways… its been about 2 weeks since i was told i have high risk cervical cancer. (i know right?!). well now i just have to wait another week or 2 to see if its spreading or to see how much damage its caused. &im not gonna lie its pretty shocking to me too. i know many woman have been diagnosed with this, but i honestly never thought it would be me. at this moment, i guess im just staying positive and hoping for the best. even as little as this, it really has changed me a lot. ive been a lot more humble and a lot more cautious about the things i do. im very grateful for everything i have and everyone who is supporting me. i know i should of been like that from the get but i always lived life in the moment and so carefree, but now, ive been a lot more aware about what i do to my body. i guess smoking and drinking is out of the picture. haha. but on a serious note… i hope everyone else out there is watching what they do. especially with sex. HIV/STDs is not a joke ppl. watch your sh*t and who you be slaying with. lol k im gonna end it on that note. but cross fingers that everything will be ok. kk naniight <3
